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September 24th, 2009

10:44 am - Beautiful dream
I had a dream last night that I was at my parent's house in Michigan, and there was the most beautiful sunset (in the east...:-/) over Susan Lake, and the clouds were positioned in such a way that made the lake look as big as Lake Michigan, and just as the sun went down, I saw a fiery glimmer in the middle of the lake, and was surprised to see lava shooting up from the water.  I ran outside and snapped a bunch of pictures, but the sun was too far below the horizon to capture the initial beauty that I saw from the bedroom window of the house.  I feel the urge to paint a picture of what I saw, but I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to do it justice.  It's the most beautiful thing I ever saw.
Current Mood: touchedtouched

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September 16th, 2009

10:15 pm - Developing good habits
They say it takes 28 days to make something a habit, and this has proven true for me.  The only catch is that if I go somewhere other than my home for a couple days or more, my habit inevitably breaks.  I didn't floss while I was at Brevard, for example, because I couldn't stand being in the bathroom for more than was absolutely necessary. 

Here are my healthy habits that I am trying to get back into:

Take a daily multivitamin

Leave it to my boyfriend to look out for my health.  He got this for me as a present :)  This one, especially for women, has 25% of your daily calcium needs, 100% iron, and 250% vitamin D, plus MANY more!

Wear sunscreen!!

For Godssake don't try to tan all the time, unless you want to have nasty leathery skin for the rest of your life.  The best way to look younger longer is to apply sunscreen EVERY DAY.  I've heard that you should apply a minimum of SPF 15.  I use SPF 45, because I'm in Miami...helloooo sun!  I love this Neutrogena Ultra Sheer, because you can't really feel it on your skin once it dries...and I HATE greasy, oily sunscreen.

Brush and FLOSS

Yeah, that's right, extra whitening...have you seen my teeth?  I can't stress it enough, though you probably hear it enough from your dentist...floss every day!  I should take my own advice.  I get the brushing part, twice a day, no problem, but the flossing is where I get hung up.  Some people may not have a big problem with it, but when your teeth are very close together, it's really hard to get the floss in between them...and if you don't, you'll get LOTS of cavities.  I learned the hard way, in my childhood.  Approximately 20 fillings, and 1 root canal later...I learned my lesson.  C'mon stem cell researchers! I want some new teeth!

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01:54 pm - Join me in my quest to...
Lose weight without really trying

I hate exercise for the sake of exercise, don't you?  Going to the gym bores me to tears.  The easiest (and I use this word loosely) way to lose weight is to move more and eat less.  I don't care about WHAT I eat, but how much I eat.  The following is what I've been doing these past 2 years, in addition to exercising at the gym (which I hate), and I've already lost 20 lbs, and gained 5 back this summer when I visited my parents.

1600 calories per day.  When I am super active on some days, I'll allow myself to eat a bit more.
a)  Measure everything you eat!  I bought myself a food scale, and now I really know what 1 serving of cereal looks like.  Most people eat more than they think they do, and don't forget to add in calories from beverages!
b)  It takes a bit of time to measure everything, but once you get the hang of it, you'll just know what a proper serving looks like, and how many calories are in the things you eat most often.  You don't have to be exact when calculating calories...I always round to the nearest 50 or 100.
c)  A lightly active 115 lb, 25-year-old woman needs 1700 calories/day to maintain her weight.  Limiting calorie intake not only helps you lose weight, but prepares you for the amount of food you should be eating when you get to your goal weight. Find your calorie requirements for your goal weight at Prevention.com
Take the stairs instead of the elevator whenever possible. 
Little things like walking up and down 4 flights of stairs every day really adds up when you think about it.

Walk instead of driving, if it's not too far. 
Obviously, I'm not going to walk 5 miles to get somewhere, but if it's within 1-2 miles, sure! 
Consider walking to the grocery store.  Make sure you bring a backpack, and a couple tote bags.  The trip back will really burn calories!  I guess this wouldn't really help unless you live in a city, but there are other things you can do.  Getting a dog is a great way to start walking more :)
Swim for exercise, because it's fun! 
I'm not going to exercise unless it's something I ENJOY.  I also enjoy long walks on the beach, nature hikes, yoga, and dance workout videos!  DDR and the Wii Fit are also fun!

Here are my "BEFORE" pics!
Height: 5'2"
Current weight:
130 lbs
Goal weight: 115-120 lbs
Current measurements:
Neck: 12"
Bust: 33"
Waist: 27.5"
Hips: 38"
Thighs: 22"
Calves: 15"
Arms: 11"

It would be AWESOME to have a blogging partner to do this with, so if anybody is interested, let me know!  It would certainly help keep us motivated and on top of things.

Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic

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September 9th, 2009

09:19 pm - I eat more...I eat less
Anecdotal evidence that we consume more when we are not paying for it directly:

When I go to visit my family, I eat 2-3 times the amount that I normally would... --->this girl<--- does not turn down free food.  I pay for it when I step on the scale to find myself 5 lbs heavier, and have to kick my ass back into shape.

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August 29th, 2009

03:43 pm - Finding Happiness
Often, finding happiness is as simple as taking the time to do my hair, put on some makeup, or dress well even when I'm not going out to see anybody.  It's important for me to find happiness in little things like that, because so often I concentrate on the imperfections of my looks, and even my character.  For some reason I have major self esteem and jealousy problems.  I crave the attention given to beautiful celebrities (well, not the media attention...just the adoration).  My boyfriend humors me by telling me that I'm in the same league as Scarlett Johannson, which I appreciate, even if I don't believe it one bit.  I could believe it if I was as confident in my own body as someone like her.  Confidence is so important to attractiveness.  But not too much confidence.

Happiness goes hand in hand with confidence, in my experience.  So to build my confidence, I need to build my happiness, which is so hard to do when it has been cold, dark, and rainy for 2 weeks.  Walking is my go-to activity to feel a quick boost in happiness.

Another challenge to my happiness is that my life seems to be moving at lightening speed.  A job offer, potentially moving across the entire country, leaving my boyfriend behind in Miami, and pursuing a long-distance relationship.  It's terrifying, and I have my doubts that I'll be able to cope throughout the whole thing on my own.  I know I can't do it on my own...my sanity is at stake.  The first thing I'll have to do when I move away is to find a meet-up group of like-minded people, make some friends, and see them on a regular basis.  Meeting people in a new place is so difficult when you don't know ANYBODY.  Sounds like I'm going to have to read "How to Win Friends and Influence People" again.  The most stressful part of meeting new people is trying to explain to them what I do.  "So, what exactly IS an orchestra librarian?"...ugh!  Unless they have ever played a string instrument, or any instrument, chances are they won't have a clue what I'm talking about.  And I always feel like a boring idiot when I try to explain it.  Like they're listening to me out of politeness, and not out of interest.  I get this, because rarely does a person ask any further questions.  Of course, it could be the big sigh I let out when someone asks me what I do. :)

I guess I find a lot of happiness in the sense of accomplishment, which is why taking a walk, making my bed, cleaning or organizing something, and making an effort to look my best are such immediate boosts.  The organizing thing?  That's why I like my job.

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July 26th, 2009

08:06 pm - The fine line
Being a head librarian this summer has taught me a lot about being in charge and laying down strict policies, and teaching people how to do everything that I do.  I have 30 work-study students here at Brevard, and 2 full time assistants.  The camp has over 400 students and probably 50 faculty, and just about all of them come to the library to get their music.

The library has become my hangout spot, when I'm done with work.  The library is far more comfortable than my little tiny ant-infested cabin.  So naturally, when people walk up to the library and see lights on, they think "Oh, the library is open!"  But they are nearly always disappointed because the door is locked at precisely 5:00 PM, and doesn't open until precisely 9:00 AM the next morning.  Even with the hours clearly posted on the door, people still try.  So I've learned to be a stickler.  If they see me inside, I will at least answer the door.  Usually I turn them away and tell them to come back when we're open, but many times I've relented and gotten them the music they needed so desperately for rehearsal the next morning.  But when you start doing that for one person, others find out and try the same thing.  Today I was so fed up with it, because it's Sunday, and we are ALWAYS closed on Sunday, which means everyone should know that they need to pick their music up by Saturday if they want it before their Monday morning rehearsal.  We're 5 weeks into camp, and many people still can't seem to grasp this.  So when two girls came knocking on the door today asking for tomorrow's music, I turned them away.  And then I felt terrible.

I'm never sure of the right thing to do in situations like these.  When people are nice to you (and they were polite), it's best to be helpful and kind.  But when the hours are clearly marked on the door, and they still come knocking, are they then trying to take advantage of my friendliness?  Should I be strict, or nice?  Sometimes I think I've been too hard on the students at camp this summer, and I sense that they dislike or even fear me.  With the faculty, it's another story.  With them, I try to be helpful even when we're closed, because I know they teach lessons all day and have rehearsals and whatnot.  They need to be as prepared as they can be, and I'm there to help them whenever I can.  But with the students, I feel the need to teach them responsibility, and letting them come in to get their music after hours doesn't exactly teach them that they need to be more responsible.  They need to learn to pick up their music A WEEK EARLIER, instead of the night before or the day of the first rehearsal.  With 400+ students at camp, they can't expect me to be available at everyone's convenience.

I guess it just goes with the job...being a bitch sometimes.
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent

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April 9th, 2009

09:55 am - Stupid shipping
Why does it cost $16 to ship ONE dress from Victoria's Secret using standard shipping???  That's crap.  I'm waiting until I get one of those promos in my e-mail for free shipping.  It's a really cute dress, though.

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April 5th, 2009

02:15 pm - Venting my anger in dreams
I dreamt about pancakes last night.

I was at a mall with my boyfriend, and we were looking for a place to have some pancakes.  We went to one place, but they didn't have what we wanted.  The second place we went to, called "Joe's" had pancakes in all sorts of flavors.  Max got one with cream cheese or something like it mixed in, and I wanted the same thing with bananas and pecans inside.  Well, that was a problem.  They could make a banana-pecan pancake, but they couldn't make a cream cheese-banana-pecan pancake.  I was like, "What do you mean I can't have that kind of pancake?  I just want the same one he's having with bananas and pecans mixed in.  How difficult is that?", to which he responded, "If it's not on the menu, it's not available."  Then I started lecturing him in a raised voice about customer choice, and options, and poor customer service, and how I would gladly go to another place, but nobody seems to sell "Create your own" pancakes!  After about 5 minutes of screaming at him, I settled for a banana-pecan pancake, but woke up before I could eat it.

I've been thinking a lot about how bad customer service has become.  But I think that dream stemmed from an incident I had on the bus one day.  I got out the money for my fare, but one of my dollars was a little torn, and wouldn't go through the machine on the bus.  I asked the bus driver if he could just take my dollar, since the machine wouldn't take it, and he refused.  I stood there arguing with him for about 3 minutes, pointing out how insane it was that he would kick me off the bus for not being able to pay my fare when I CLEARLY had the money in my hand.  The problem?  The government has a monopoly on transportation.  If I COULD go to another bus with better service, I WOULD, but alas it is illegal to start a transportation company that would be in direct competition with mass transit.  And this is the friggin' U.S.A...land of the free?  Yeah, right.  I would love to start a transportation company that provided wireless internet, and pastries to riders.  The fare would reflect the quality of service, and I'm fairly convinced that there would be plenty of business to go around.

*SIGH*  Pancakes...

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March 4th, 2009

02:57 pm - Gratitude
Maintaining happiness is a constant struggle for me.  It's hard to be happy when I think that my boyfriend is ignoring me, or doesn't love me, or doesn't want to spend time with me, and I know that it's not true because he's just stressed with finals and family issues, and I feel guilty for putting blame and even more stress on him...I'm a mess this week.

So here's 10 things that I'm happy about today:

1. I had two delicious pieces of chocolate for a snack today
2. My eyelashes are beautiful and long
3. Teddy finally came into the library to pick up the scores I made for him
4. I feel like I'm on better terms with one of Max's friends, who I've been jealous of.  I'd like to get to know her better.
5. I haven't been cold all day, which is a nice change
6. I discovered another Starbucks drink that I like: the vanilla latte
7. Listening to the countertenor, David Hansen, who is singing with us in our all Handel program this week
8. My weight today was 126.8
9. A joke by an 8-year-old: Why did the chicken cross the playground?  To get to the other slide :)
10. Sunshine (if only we had windows in the library!)

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09:44 am - Virgin Mary? Prophecies? Really?
Recently, I've been studying the Bible a whole lot more than usual

To all those people who think Mary, mother of Jesus, remained a virgin for her entire life, read this:

24When Joseph woke up, he did what the angel of the Lord had commanded him and took Mary home as his wife. 25But he had no union with her until she gave birth to a son. And he gave him the name Jesus.  [Matthew 1:24-25]

Also, if Joseph wasn't biologically connected to Jesus, how can Jesus fulfill the prophecy that the messiah will descend from David?  And moreover, how do you come up with messiah from this passage:

11 The LORD swore an oath to David,
       a sure oath that he will not revoke:
       "One of your own descendants
       I will place on your throne-

 12 if your sons keep my covenant
       and the statutes I teach them,
       then their sons will sit
       on your throne for ever and ever."
[Psalm 132:11-12]


5 "The days are coming," declares the LORD,
       "when I will raise up to David [
a] a righteous Branch,
       a King who will reign wisely
       and do what is just and right in the land.

 6 In his days Judah will be saved
       and Israel will live in safety.
       This is the name by which he will be called:
       The LORD Our Righteousness.
 [Jeremiah 23:5-6]

14 " 'The days are coming,' declares the LORD, 'when I will fulfill the gracious promise I made to the house of Israel and to the house of Judah.
15 " 'In those days and at that time
       I will make a righteous Branch sprout from David's line;
       he will do what is just and right in the land.

 16 In those days Judah will be saved
       and Jerusalem will live in safety.
       This is the name by which it [
a] will be called:
       The LORD Our Righteousness.
' [Jeremiah 33:14-16]



--I think this is why Jesus has so many names - they didn't come outright and say his name would be Jesus in the Old Testament, even though the prophecies were from God, and the Angels knew it...why not?  Maybe because Jesus was such a common name?  Then they'd have everyone claiming to be the Messiah?  But if he descends from David, and if his sons keep the covenant, they will sit on the throne forever...then that means he would be a king...but that doesn't fit either...because he wasn't actually related to Joseph.  These are weak prophecies, and like most prophecies, are so vague that they could be referring to anybody...like, I don't know, David's kids and grandchildren??

I'm going to make a prophecy:
In the days to come, the Revered One will rule the land from east to west, and all shall look upon him with hope to take them out of their darkest days.

A prophecy has to be vague enough so that it can't be falsified.  Here's what I think a real prophecy should be like:

On May 3, 2009, at 3:30 PM Eastern Time, Judy Collins of Tallahassee, FL will be struck by a car while she crosses the street, and have a successful recovery at the Tallahassee Memorial Hospital.

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